Monday, July 29, 2013

Darkness





As darkness descends, I cry in agony
Grey skies look down upon me
Fear engulfs my little soul and I
Yell into darkness, hollow channels.

My screams transcend life and light,
No knight in shining armor saves me
I die alone, fragment by fragment.
Piece by piece my death unites.

A deep pain pierces my heart
Of the sights I cannot appreciate
For life blooming, trees swaying are
Gone, affairs of the past.

“Save me”, I implore in vain.
Dark fumes consume me, tear me apart.
Slowly, I relieve my fear, accept my fate
I die today but my fear dies with me.

Jobless? Who me?

DAY 1

8AM

30th August, 2012 was just another day. I woke up at around 8, took bath and  began to dress hurriedly. I picked out a random salwar kameez, swept through my hair and that's about it. I made sure I had my file , ID card, some certificates and good wishes from Amma before leaving

9.10AM

I usually reach college on time(sometimes I reach late...OK most of the time I'm late!!) . That day was no different.Oh did I tell you?Today was the day a reputed company was coming for campus recruitment.(nothing to get excited about, I was from Biotech and no placement aptitude test passes without C or C++ questions. Yawn!). Anyway, it was 9.15 and me and my friends ran towards our auditorium (AKA cow shed ). This cow shed should be given a little more credit alright.They improved upon it as much as they could. It looked decent now.

So there we were, waiting for this 'company fellows' to give their presentation and get it over with! 600 of us had gathered there for a comapny that would take 40-50 odd students.Humph!

Suddenly 4 people walked inside alongside our placement officer(PO). The latter ,our PO is seen as the biggest asset of our college.
(Make it quick with the presentation and test, we are sleepy).
Our PO formally introduced them ..(glorifying everybody). This was followed by the 'company fellows' talking to us and praising us so much that they used words like 'champions, heroes' etc. I couldn't care less.
After the presentation, they briefed us on the rounds that we had to battle as we went along. All in all there were 5 rounds; aptitude, group discussion, technical interview, paragraph writing and HR interview.

11.30AM
90 questions, 90 minutes (Okay, doable..but what about C, C++ questions???).
There were 4 sets of question papers and I got set D. I looked at the paper and a small ray of hope flickered .No C or C++ questions. Phew. Math, Logical reasoning and verbal. Now I had a chance (of clearing this first hurdle). Yes, it was not impossible now..

It was not very tough (at least for me). My 90 minutes were up..I submitted the paper and went to eat. My friends and I started discussing the paper.. we wanted to clear this. I mean if we couldn't clear this..what could we do? (after all, this had no computer questions as that was our excuse for previous exams!).

3.30PM
As I walked back to the classroom where my prospective career would be decided...I was nervous.I looked at my friends, they were shaky too. One guy walked in with a bunch of OMR sheets and started to read out names. Many names passed...no sign of mine. My vision was directed grimly at his lips, trying to conceive every syllable even before it came out as sound..
There it was..I could see it coming.. "Niimiiishaa", he said. I breathed heavily!!!

5PM

Now the first part was done. 7 of us from our department cleared the test (awesome!) and 150 odd students in total. Next round was group discussion (GD). Frankly, I was not fazed by this round because I knew I could rattle up something/anything and move on.
They divided us into many (many) groups. I was in group number 12. I waited patiently till my turn..trying to think of good points for any current affairs topic. At last they called us in..we were 10 of us. "Social networking sites, good/bad for youth'. Aah this I ll definitely clear I thought.
And I did.

6.30 PM (I think)

Since I cleared my GD I was next in line for technical interview. Technical, my foot. I knew nothing technical in anything except maybe in my field. Some lady called my name and I ran into a room that read 'Panel 4' (I think). There I was sitting in an interview room for the first time in my life!!I could not process my thoughts but I tried to remain as cool as possible.(I kept reminding myself that this was not the end of the world..but somewhere inside me I wanted to be 'victorious').
Let me tell you, apart from a very few basic 'C' questions she did not trouble me. She asked me about my projects and technicalities involved. I explained everything with utmost elaboration and diagrams.(Yes I overacted to impress her). I smiled and nodded at her so much that I felt a little dizzy afterwards.
But it was all worth it. It went well and I was happy.


7.30 PM

It was time for the results ..and 3 of us from my class cleared the interview along with 70 others. They wound up for the day and asked us to sleep over the fact that we had another round tomorrow. (paragraph writing was not elimination round)
Great !How Am I going to sleep?!

DAY 2

8 AM
I was ready by 8 AM today (Yes, I wore a suit that my friends had gifted me on my birthday..loved it). I reached college at around 9 and directly went to placement and training room.

10AM
Well, the 'company fellows' showed up by around 10 O'CLOCK.They did not waste much time in giving the topic for paragraph writing. 15 minutes and they collected the paper. I was pleased with what I wrote. It was decent, I thought.

11AM

One of the coordinators announced 10 names and asked us to go for HR interview, immediately. Like NOWW. (Yes I was the second to go in!!).

The interview was not technical, but it was the 'make or break' types.It was chilled out . The panelist made me read out my passage. He said a 'good' in the end (I'm sure he wasn't listening). He asked me if I was ready to relocate and I promptly said 'YES'. (it was like a reflex..anything he asked and I said 'Yes, of course, Why not Sir?').He asked me why I wanted this company only when I had other companies coming. I gave such a tactical answer for this..(I gave an imaginary pat on my back for my instant answer!) .If I reveal the answer, I ll have to reveal the company..Ping me on FB for this.

11.30 AM

I was done with all the rounds..what to do now? I called Dad, Mom and everyone and told them what happened. I was bored.12PM , 1PM, 2PM..no change in status. Yawn.

>>>>>>>>>>>>>Fast forward

7.PM (yes you read it right!)

After the 7 hour wait..finally the scenario started to change. Students were done with all rounds and results were in sight.HRs, leaving out the formal stuff started announcing THE names. 10-15 names passed..no sign of my name..(Damn they chucked out all Biotech people! Why did we join this branch?).

Suddenly..there it was..NIMISHA EP (I was so proud of my name that day).
What?? I got the job?Before this could sink in...he called out my friend's name. Yay two of us from Biotech. (\m/)
They took 55 of us that day, 55 'champions'.

This is how 30th and 31st August went from being really ordinary days to extra ordinary days in my life!!!(and for 54 other people).

PS : I would like to tell you that I rejected this offer recently, but I will hold this experience dearly as it was and will be my first real job experience!